I’m just an ugly shell
I’m an ugly shell that she sees
I’m an ugly shell that she knows
I’m the ugly shell that disappoints
I’m just someone to be ashamed of
Ill never be someone to be proud of to her
Ill never be the big sister to look up to for her
I broker her and she is also broken because of me
I am an ugly monster
I try to hide in the shadows
I don’t want anyone to see
But the monster some ppl do see
That’s the moments I can’t look into her eye and she is the one always putting me in my place
I am someone to be disappointed in
She is the child everyone is proud of
Except her, lost as much as me, maybe because I broke her
But I am the cause of both there pain
An the cause of loss of joy of a broken family
I am a broken doll as result of a dysfunctional world I was born into
With no choice at all I became an ugly broken shell
But with all my poor decisions I became an ugly monster
A monster I could never change or control
I wish I was invisible and no one could see me at all
And the few that seen my true self wishes the same
I can tell she wishes I could go
And I know her thoughts are the same as well
I know no one wants me
So I go hide in the shadows
Where no one can find me
Not even the monster inside me
And the broken doll can hide inside me
From everyone else
